:"(

" ya udah dek gak apa-apa, gak usah sedih dan putus asa, tahun depan coba lagi "

itulah kata-kata yang bisa dibilang diucapkan (soalnya itu lewat sms) oleh papa pas tau gue gak lolos STIS tahap 1, it's really painful :')

updated:
tadi pas papa pulang kerja, papa senyum terus bilang "gapapa ya dek? " gue jawab "iya gapapa"
anjir digituin jadi tambah pengen nahan nangis gue :(

Maroon 5 ft Wiz Khalifa - Payphone

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember
The people we used to be…
It’s even harder to picture
That you’re not here next to me
You say it’s too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
Still stuck in that time
When we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit One more fucking love song, I’ll be sick
.
Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
‘Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But you just gave it away
You can’t expect me to be fine
I don’t expect you to care
I know I’ve said it before
But all of our bridges burned down

I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
 Still stuck in that time
 When we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit One more fucking love song, I’ll be sick.
Now I’m at a payphone

Man, fuck that shit I’ll be out spending all this money
While you’re sitting round wondering
Why it wasn’t you who came up from nothing
Made it from the bottom Now when you see me I’m stunning
And all of my cars start with a push of a button
Telling me the chances I blew up Or whatever you call it
Switch the number to my phone So you never could call it
Don’t need my name on my show, You can tell it I’m ballin
Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it’s over for
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it’s me who they want, so you can go and take that little piece of shit with you

I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like this
All those fairy tales are full of shit One more fucking love song, I’ll be sick
Now I’m at a payphone…

My Life is like a Mixtape :)

hampir mirip kayak judul lagunya Endrumarch feat Raisa, "Love is like a Mixtape" hehe gue gak gitu ngerti sih apa artinya mixtape, setelah cari di google ternyata mixtape itu artinya adalah kompilasi lagu-lagu gitu, dan karena akhir2 ini momennya mau kelulusan terus gue baru berasa kangen2an sekarang, makanya jadi pas momennya buat ngenang lagu2 apa aja yang ngingetin gue sama orang-orang yang special pas SMA di bawah ini:

1. Sekar - Sorry Sorry Answer by Super Junior
2. Della - Run Devil Run (i think some SNSD's songs)
3. Rizka - Replay by Shinee
4. Wira - Nothing on You by B.O.B
5. Dilla - lagu2 Justin Bieber sama Ecoutez
6. Dea - Buktikan by Dewi Sandra
7. Rizqa - A Little Too Not Over You by David Archuleta
8. Desti - Akhiri Saja by Sm*sh (hehe)
9. Ricky - Love Will Find You by Aditya (awalnya gue pikir penyanyinya adhitia sofyan ternyata bukan haha)
10. Ulfa - Fallin for You by Colbie Caillat
11. Unknown (padahal kenal, hahahaha) - Mr. Taxi by SNSD
12. Kangkung - Kamu dihatiku selamanya by KD
13. Nurul - That's Love by Donghae ft Henry (ost Skip Beat)

segitu dulu deh, gue tiba-tiba lupa nih, ntar kapan2 di update.. oh iya gue milih lagu2 dan orang2 diatas sebagai mixtape dalam hidup gue juga ada alasannya, jadi gak asal nyomot hahaha :D

Pesan Moral Hari Ini

gue mau cerita nih apa yang udah terjadi hari ini, eaaa hahaha.. jadi hari ini gue sama papa pergi ke daerah Salemba gitu naik motor, nah pas pulangnya yang seru, ditengah perjalanan pulang eh ujan, gede pula..
awalnya kita neduh gitu dibawah jalan layang (iya bukan sih namanya jalan layang? -red), terus akhirnya kita nerobos ujan deh, papa ngeluarin jas ujan gitu terus nyuruh gue aja yang pake soalnya papa udah pake jaket.. yaudah terus kita terobos ujan kan..
gue sama papa kan masing-masing pake helm, nah kadang kalo kena ngelewatin polisi tidur tuh helm gue suka nubruk helm papa hahahaha, apa sih tuh namanya, bukan nabrak tapi apa ya? ngebentur gitu lah haha terus ditambah lagi malem sebelumnya tuh gue gak tidur karena takut bangun kesiangan, yaudah akibatnya selama dijalan gue ngantuk banget dan terjadilah hal-hal membahayakan bodoh seperti berikut ini..

pertama, selama dijalan helm gue ngebentur helm papa berkali-kali, gue gak bisa ngebayangin kalo gue jadi papa, pasti gue bakal marah dan ngomong, "ini kenapa sih helmnya nabrak-nabrak mulu? ganggu tau!" hahahaa itu karena gue udah ngantuk berat level.. hemm level 5 dari 10 deh hehehe papa cuma ngomong..
papa: tidur dek?
gue: nggak kok, emang kalo jalanannya jelek suka gak sengaja nubruk aja (masih bisa ngeles bareng nizam)

kedua, karena perjalanannya yang emang lumayan jauh dan makan waktu lama, ditambah juga udara dingin enak karena lagi ujan, bikin ngantuk gue tambah akut, kira-kira udah level 8,5 deh hahahaha dan itu bener-bener bahaya (jadi jangan ditiru! -red) karena gue ngerasain motor agak oleng ke kiri gara-gara gue huhuhuhu gue kan dibonceng sama papa, terus mata udah merem dan gue udah gak mikirin apa-apa lagi (pertanda pules. -red), badan gue juga kan lumayan bisa bikin motor miring sebelah ya, udah gak usah diperjelas pasti tau kan maksudnya -_____- yaudah akhirnya baru sadar dan kaget banget pas motor mendadak hilang keseimbangan terus miring ke kiri mau jatoh gitu..
papa: kamu tidur ya dek?
gue: ha..? nggak (diem, nyawa masih setengah)

nah itu dia pengalaman gue hari ini, sebenernya banyak banget sih yang terjadi hari ini tapi gue gak mau ceritain hahaha pokoknya pesan moral hari ini adalah Jangan Keseringan Main Internet! kenapa? karena itu bisa bikin lo lupa waktu jadi lupa makan, lupa tidur, lupa lagi mules terus lo tahan akhirnya keluar dicelana, huft.. dan karena lo lupa tidur bikin lo jadi ngantuk pas besoknya dan terjadilah hal-hal semacam diatas.. oke, pokoknya jangan ditiru!

17th, please come faster...

gatau kenapa tiba-tiba jadi pengen cepet-cepet 17 tahun, fyi, gue baru 16 tahun, dan biasanya gue bangga dengan ke-muda-an gue diantara temen-temen gue hahahaa
tapi sekarang gue antusias banget mau tujuh belas, hmm... diumur segitu gue mau bikin e-ktp, mau buka rekening sendiri, mau ikut pemilu, pokoknya mau melakukan sesuatu yang diumur gue yang sekarang ini belum boleh dilakuin, tapi yang positif pastinya.. :)